PBS高端访谈:科伦拜校园事件伤痛远未消除

JUDY WOODRUFF: With the 20th anniversary of the Columbine High School massacre¹ just a few away, that school and hundreds of other Denver schools were closed today due to credible² threats by an 18-year-old woman. Today, law enforcement officials say the woman was found dead from an apparent suicide. In a moment, Lisa Desjardins will speak with two people whose lives were profoundly altered by the tragedy. But, first, we hear from some survivors⁴ directly. In the upcoming Rocky Mountain PBS documentary Ripples⁵ of Columbine, it is clear that many are still struggling with physical and emotional scars.

WOMAN: I was a senior when Columbine happened. I saw one of my friends die and everyone else shot around me.

HEATHER MARTIN, Columbine High School Shooting Survivor³: My name is Heather Martin. And I was a senior in 1999. I was barricaded⁶ in the choir⁷ office. There were 60 of us in there for about three hours.

FRANK DEANGELIS, Former Principal, Columbine High School: I'm Frank DeAngelis, former principal of Columbine High School.

MAKAI HALL, Columbine High School Shooting Survivor: My name is Makai Hall. I was in the Columbine High School Library.

LANCE KIRKLIN, Columbine High School Shooting Survivor: My name is Lance Kirklin. I was shot five times at Columbine High school. Somewhere around 35 surgeries that first year or two years. Feels like every other month, I was having something done. Just got to a point in 2001 where I found out that I was going to be a dad and was trying to pay my own bills and move out on my own. It was just too much at that time mentally and physically⁸ to just keep doing surgeries. So I stopped.

WOMAN: I don't remember freshman⁹. I don't remember my sophomore¹⁰ year. I don't remember my junior year. I don't remember graduating, barely. I remember Columbine. I mean, there definitely is survivor guilt¹¹, which I felt, I still feel. It's palpable. It's real. Why didn't I put myself in front of the gun instead? Why didn't I roll my body over Lauren? Why didn't I pull Gina out with me? It's, it was more of like a punishment, essentially¹², because I wasn't injured. I was really angry at God, really upset. Just why was I still alive? Why didn't I get hurt? Why am I still here?

MAKAI HALL: I got into this cycle where it was like it was on repeat, and all I could think about was how bad it was for me, and how horrifying¹³ it was. The images of the shooting were pretty clear and the violence of it, seeing people maimed and hurt and dead. Those things kind of, it took a while for them to leave. I was very depressed¹⁴, very angry, couldn't get over the fact that I had gone through something, and I felt the world owed me something.

朱迪·伍德拉夫：再过几天就是杰佛逊郡科伦拜中学屠杀事件的20周年纪念日，这所学校和丹佛的其他学校今天都暂停上课，因为一位18岁女性受到了真实的威胁。今天，一些执法人员表示，这位女性显然是自杀身亡的。我台记者丽萨·德雅尔丹迅速采访了2位可能因为这场悲剧而受到深重影响的人。不过，在那之前，我们先听一下几位幸存者的心声。在我台即将播出的洛矶山纪录片《科伦拜中学事件》中，显然很多人都依然在深陷身体和心理的创痛。

女：我读高年级的时候，科百伦中学发生了屠杀事件。我亲眼看到一个朋友死去，而我身边是子弹穿梭。

希瑟·马丁，科伦拜中学屠杀事件幸存者：我叫希瑟·马丁。1999年的时候，我读高年级。那一年，我在唱诗班里遭到了堵截。我们60名学生在那里待了近3个小时。

弗兰克·迪安吉利斯，科伦拜中学前校长：我是弗兰克·迪安吉利斯，这所学校的前校长。

霍尔，科伦拜中学屠杀事件幸存者：我是霍尔。出事儿的时候，我在学校的图书管里。

兰斯·柯克林，科伦拜中学屠杀事件幸存者：我是兰斯·柯克林。当时我在学校身负五枪。大概前一两年里，有做了大概35次手术。我每隔一个月，我就要做手术。就这样，时间到了2001年，那时候我得知妻子怀孕了，我必须要承担起家里财务的胆子，走出曾经的阴霾。如果继续做手术，我的身心都难以负重，所以我决定暂停手术。

女：我4年的时间一晃而过，我却没留下什么记忆。但我记得科伦拜中学。它留给我一种来自幸存者的愧疚感，这种感觉我存留至今，特别明显，特别真实。我为什么没有挡在前面呢？我为什么没有用身体护住劳伦呢？为什么没有拉吉娜一起出来呢？或者更像是对我的一种惩罚，因为我没有受伤。我对上帝生气，我感到不安。为什么我还活着？为什么我没受伤？为什么我还能好好地站在这里？

霍尔：我进入了这样的循环，就像是一种死循环。我脑海里只有痛苦和恐惧。枪击和暴力的场面很清晰，我看到有人残废、受伤甚至死去。这些画面一时半会很难抹去。我很低落、很愤怒，因为我无法过一个坎儿，那就是我活下来了，总觉得这世界亏欠了我什么。

1 massacre   

n.残杀，大屠杀；v.残杀，集体屠杀

参考例句：

• There was a terrible massacre of villagers here during the war.在战争中，这里的村民惨遭屠杀。
• If we forget the massacre,the massacre will happen again!忘记了大屠杀，大屠杀就有可能再次发生！

2 credible   

adj.可信任的，可靠的

参考例句：

• The news report is hardly credible.这则新闻报道令人难以置信。
• Is there a credible alternative to the nuclear deterrent?是否有可以取代核威慑力量的可靠办法？

3 survivor   

n.生存者，残存者，幸存者

参考例句：

• The sole survivor of the crash was an infant.这次撞车的惟一幸存者是一个婴儿。
• There was only one survivor of the plane crash.这次飞机失事中只有一名幸存者。

4 survivors   

幸存者，残存者，生还者( survivor的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• The survivors were adrift in a lifeboat for six days. 幸存者在救生艇上漂流了六天。
• survivors clinging to a raft 紧紧抓住救生筏的幸存者

5 ripples   

逐渐扩散的感觉( ripple的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• The moon danced on the ripples. 月亮在涟漪上舞动。
• The sea leaves ripples on the sand. 海水在沙滩上留下了波痕。

6 barricaded   

设路障于，以障碍物阻塞( barricade的过去式和过去分词 )； 设路障[防御工事]保卫或固守

参考例句：

• The police barricaded the entrance. 警方在入口处设置了路障。
• The doors had been barricaded. 门都被堵住了。

7 choir   

n.唱诗班，唱诗班的席位，合唱团，舞蹈团；v.合唱

参考例句：

• The choir sang the words out with great vigor.合唱团以极大的热情唱出了歌词。
• The church choir is singing tonight.今晚教堂歌唱队要唱诗。

8 physically   

adj.物质上，体格上，身体上，按自然规律

参考例句：

• He was out of sorts physically,as well as disordered mentally.他浑身不舒服，心绪也很乱。
• Every time I think about it I feel physically sick.一想起那件事我就感到极恶心。

9 freshman   

n.大学一年级学生(可兼指男女)

参考例句：

• Jack decided to live in during his freshman year at college.杰克决定大一时住校。
• He is a freshman in the show business.他在演艺界是一名新手。

10 sophomore   

n.大学二年级生；adj.第二年的

参考例句：

• He is in his sophomore year.他在读二年级。
• I'm a college sophomore majoring in English.我是一名英语专业的大二学生。

11 guilt   

n.犯罪；内疚；过失，罪责

参考例句：

• She tried to cover up her guilt by lying.她企图用谎言掩饰自己的罪行。
• Don't lay a guilt trip on your child about schoolwork.别因为功课责备孩子而使他觉得很内疚。

12 essentially   

adv.本质上，实质上，基本上

参考例句：

• Really great men are essentially modest.真正的伟人大都很谦虚。
• She is an essentially selfish person.她本质上是个自私自利的人。

13 horrifying   

a.令人震惊的，使人毛骨悚然的

参考例句：

• He went to great pains to show how horrifying the war was. 他极力指出战争是多么的恐怖。
• The possibility of war is too horrifying to contemplate. 战争的可能性太可怕了，真不堪细想。

14 depressed   

adj.沮丧的，抑郁的，不景气的，萧条的

参考例句：

• When he was depressed,he felt utterly divorced from reality.他心情沮丧时就感到完全脱离了现实。
• His mother was depressed by the sad news.这个坏消息使他的母亲意志消沉。