《丑女贝蒂》精讲 114我们的关系无法挽回

That was a meeting.

那是个会议

A very important meeting with a very important man

和一个重要的人开的重要会议

who had a great story for our magazine,

他能给我们杂志带来一个好故事

who you might have recognized

你也许应该认得他

if you worked at Mode for any other reason but to torture me.

如果你在《时尚》认真工作而不是折磨我

Do you know how hard I have worked for this promotion¹,

你知道为了这个职位我努力了多少

How long I have waited?

我等待了多久

And you are ruining it.

而你却把它毁了

You are ruining something that means so much to me.

你在毁掉对我那么重要的东西

I know! I know I am,and I can't help it.

我知道 我知道 我就是控制不了

What?

什么

You're right, I am awful to you,but...

你说得对 我对你很糟糕 但是

I can't stop myself because I can't stand seeing you happy

我也控制不了 因为我不想看到你开心

When I am in so much pain.

而我却是那么痛苦

And you... you probably can't understand that

你 你不会懂的

because you are so...good.

因为你那么 出色

You're not some spoiled rich kid who can't handle it

你不是个被宠坏的富家子就不懂怎么处理这一切

when he doesn't get his way,

当他不能如愿以偿的时候

but apparently² that's who I am.

但很显然我就是这么一个人

And the worse thing is that with every word I say,

最糟糕是 我说的每一句话

I know I am ruining whatever hope we had of fixing this relationship.

我知道都在毁掉我们挽回这段感情的机会

1 promotion   

n.提升，晋级；促销，宣传

参考例句：

• The teacher conferred with the principal about Dick's promotion.教师与校长商谈了迪克的升级问题。
• The clerk was given a promotion and an increase in salary.那个职员升了级，加了薪。

2 apparently   

adv.显然地；表面上，似乎

参考例句：

• An apparently blind alley leads suddenly into an open space.山穷水尽，豁然开朗。
• He was apparently much surprised at the news.他对那个消息显然感到十分惊异。